it is gone

now,i feel so tense.coz i've to complete my fyp.but nothing is done!sgt trtekan n mnympah!!!dlm ati sllu mnjerit-jerit,"cpt la this suffer abes.xlarat dah.も～ヤダっ！"juz imagine i've to face all these menyakitkan-ati things slma sbulan lg!!!utk jiwa yg parah,yg rs life-is-not-more-interesting-to-me ni,sbulan tu lame beb!!!!!!

klu la my eyes could say something,msti die kate,"dah la nadia,pnt saye klu awk asek nangis je.org len pn ade mate,tp xdela asek nangis cm awak nih"

n klu la my heart could chat with me,msti die kate,"cik nadia,awk x sian kt sy ke.tiap2 ari sy kene sakit."

wahai hati,wahai mata,wahai badan,ketahuilah,ak pn dh pnt nk face sume bnde nih.srabut tau.bgn pagi rs cm mls nk mulekan hdp br.nk duduk2,tdo2 n let the time pass cmtu je smpi d end of march.after that,i bleh balik dgn girangnye.tolak troli bsr2 kt airport pstu carik2 family ngn ati yg bdebar2.oh,cant wait to feel that!!!

sumtimes,i feel sorry to my kwn2 kt cni,sbb dorg asek tgk muke serabut i nih.sian dorg.i dah cube nk wat muke yg tade mslh,blgak like i org plg hepi n boleh mghepikan org len,but i cant.sgt ssh.sian kwn2 coz tpksa dgr i membebel2 psl bnde yg dorg dah sllu dgr.sori yer u all,please tahan ngn i.nadia ade 2 bln lg je kt cni.pastu korg bleh bsorak riang.(oh,i feel so bad rite now...)

hmm...i noe that i ni bkn bdk2 lagi.yg bile u feel give up or fed up ngn 1 thing,u stop bnde tuh.nangis2.pstu ur mom dtg pujok2,usap2 ur kepala n says,"xpe2,klu xnk wat,xyah wat"
tp i nk sgt rase bnde tuh skrg ni.wahai mesin pemutar waktu,wjudlah kamu.i really2 need u at this moment.

n bcoz of dis,i feel like cam trsisih,disisihkan,sume org dah mnyampah ngn i.dah xnk lyn i.i tau we will feel these kind of feeling bile we feel so tense.tp i cant help feeling that.so damn sad:(

n i noe,when someone feel so down n got many probs,Allah want to test him/her.i noe that.tp i'm still sad.god,help me.give me the new life of courage.coz the old one is gone...